My life is an emotional break down because of my philosophy's?

It's a good thing to think about things. I was the same way when I was your age and I still remember how scary it is when you go too far down the rabbit hole, things start getting strange. Heck I once convinced myself I didn't exist! From your situation it looks like most of the mental strain is rooted in religion. The more you question your beliefs the less sense they will make, which is a good thing considering you were likely brainwashed into it from birth; and don't worry, hell isn't real. Keep questioning existence it's one of humankind's de facto duties.